When it's all said and done!

I was sitting the other day and as is customary of me, my mind wanders to a place that leaves me wondering (no pun intended). I get to this place and I find myself writing my epitaph. I know this is quite macabre but my mind kept on wandering anyway, and what I wanted to write down was this: “Lived life fiercely, fearlessly and touched the lives around her in a profound way” When I “came to” I pondered on this for a moment  and decided to re-write it with the truth as it is today and this is what it read: “Cruised through life desiring much but doing little, wanted desperately to profoundly affect others and kept thinking of a big way to do it, liked living but gave many reasons why she couldn’t live in the moment, knew her passion and made many excuses not to live it” I compared the two footnotes of my life and what a world of difference, and in that time I knew that many things had to change so I made a choice to embark on this journey to consciously re-write my epitaph and this blog is one of the many first steps of my journey. I had toyed with blogging for a long time because I have always had a proclivity to express myself through writing; but I constantly thought- Who cares what you have to say?, It’s not going to be “interesting” enough anyway (whatever that means). I realize now that ‘done is better than good’ (second degree theft from a face book posting) and what I say does matter even though no one else may care to listen (well except for my kids and husband- they better). If you happen to be reading this now, I want to thank you for being a part of my many first steps, for helping to re-write my epitaph, and I hope as I bare my thoughts and feelings that I can in some measure impact your life even in some little way.